Chadni Raate

12 / 10 / 1993
Tue.day

Baba ageye raji hoye geachilen, maa aj sokale raji hoyche, agami kal amra ranchi jachhi, amra mane, ekhan theke ratna, or bor sanjib, ami, ar mita, prothome jabo ranchi, anuradhader bari, anur bor rupesh okhane ki jeno ekta besh boro chakri kore, ranchi ghurbo ekdin, okhan theke jabo netarhat.

Bag guchono hoye gieache, kal rate train, oho, sakale osud dokane jete hobe, ‘mala-d’ nite hobe du pata, hotochhari mitar jonno ek pata nite hobe, bole deache, or to darun holo, anur ek ki jeno samporker deor mamato somvoboto, naam ashok, goto bochor anur beate oder porichay hoy, ekhon dujone preme habudubu khachhe. Kintu oder tin joner to ekta kore jutlo, ami ki korbo? Kabab me haddi! Ja hok dekha jabe, barano to hobe, rat 11 ta baje, suea pora jak.

13 / 10 / 1993
Wed.day

Goto kal rate dairy likhte parini, traine chilam, aj ranchi te likhchi, mane 14 tarikhe bose 13 tarikher ta likhchi, abar 14 tarikher tao likhchi.

Baba ratnader bari pouche delen, other bari theke sondha 7.30 tay char jone berholam, ekta gari vara korechilo ratnar bor, rat 10.20 te train hawrha theke, ranchi hatia express, sokale late nakorle 9 tar vetor ranchi reach korbe.

Ratna ke vison sundar lagchilo, amader vetor sobchaite sundari ratna, lal ar kalor opor kajkora synthetic poreche, mita poreche sada ar niler opor kajkora synthetic, ami porechi, sada ciffoner churidar, ei dhoroner churidar gulor ekta bises osubida ache, rate ulto dik theke alo porle pary sob dekha jay, kalo panty, ar offwhite lessy bra, ebarer tour tay atanur training kaje lage ki na test korbo. Sonar goyna amra keu porini, ami ar mita to noye, ratna poreche, nehat porte hoy tai.

Station chottore hajar hajar chokh amader tin jon ke chete chete khachhilo, train er vetor bisesh kichu hoyni, amar upper birth chilo, ulto diker upper birther adhburo lok ta sara rat ghumote pareni, ami sudhu amar pachar theke kamij ta tule rekhe chilam,jeno ghumer ghore sore geache, sada ciffoner shalwar tar vetor kalo panty, lokta rate dubar toilet geachilo, diabetis ache bodh hoy.

Trainer duluni te kokhon ghum ese geachilo bujhte parini.

14 / 10 / 1993
Thu.day

Ghum vanglo sokale sanjibdar dake, sokal 6 ta, muri station, cha khabar jonno dakche, nablam, majer birth tay chilo mita, kule feleche, cha khelam, mitar abar nakamo, mukh na dhuyea cha khabona, sanjibda bollo er pore ekebare ranchi, majhe ar cha chyleo paoa jabe na, jai hok cha porbo mitlo, toilet kore , brush kore fresh holam amra, upper birth tokhono ghumochhe, sanjibda toilete gelo, mita bollo, “tui na ki jeno, ei tar sathe oi kalo panty porechis!” “keno kharap lagche?” Ami bollam,

Mita bollo “ta noy, sanjibda ache na? Ratnar voy korche.”

---“tora dujone chesta korleo parbi na, kal asar age tonic khayea deachi na !”

---“ki tonic re?”

Ratna nijer koler deke isara korlo. Mita bollo kal rate naki amar ulto diker lokta khub chot fot korchilo, dubar toilet jabar por ghumeache, ami bollam “keno re ?” “keno abar, tor black & white t.v. Dekhe or chokh kharap hoyea chilo tai.” Amader hasir sobde sobar ghum venge gelo.

Sanjib da bollo “eta chotonagpur range, eto sundar prakritik soundarjo ar kothao dekhte pabe na, dekhe nao duchokh vore,”

Satty osadharon sinic beauty, mone holo jungle saffary korchi, eke beke bisal train ta choleche, kokhono paharer ga dhore kokhono saler jungler vetor dea,kokhono ba paharer mathar opor dea, hatat ratna bole uthlo, “ei dekho, train tar engine ar ses matha dutoi dekte parchi, amra sobai humri kheyea porlam, satty tai, train line ta eto tai bekeche, thik jeno derjilinger batasia loop.

---“ekhane koek bochor ageo bagh berhoto,”

Ochena kontho, sobai takalam, sei upper birth, kokhon niche nebeche jante parini, amra obak hoyea takalam, ------“vabchen golpo, samne asche ganga ghat station, nojor kore dekhben oi station ta koto ta uchute toiri kora hoeache, taholei bujte parben.”

Amra tin jone mukh chaoa chaye korlam, sanjibda gater kache cigerette khete geache, ratna ar mita isaray amake egote bollo,

---“tai ! Saattyyy ! Ki vison bapar bolun to, statione lok thakto ki kore ?”

jutota khojar van kore nichu holam, buker khaj ta ke olpo show korlam, tar por du pa tule emon vabe boslam samna samni amar ekta pachar side ar panty ta halka kore bojha jay, lok tar chokh amar komorer kache jeno atke gelo, ratna ar mita hasi chepe bairer dike takyea roilo, besikhhon khelano gelo na. Ektu badei sanjibda ese gelo, ar ektu bade ranchi, amra statione nablam thik sokal 8.15.

Rupesh da ekta chotto gari nea statione esechilo, maruti800, amader barite nea gelo, amra charjone hoi hoi kore uthlam, fresh hoea, chan tan kore saradin khub hoi hoi korlam, eri vetor mita amake bar koyek ashoker kotha jiggesh korte bollo, anuradha bollo, asbe sandhya belay.

Rate khaoar pore amra charjon, sanjibda,rupeshda ar ashokda onekhhan adda marlam, ekhane besh thanda eri moddhay poreche, amra komboler talay, ora tin jon chaire, ratna ta khub mukh alga hoyeache, rupeshda ke bole “ki bapar , ekhono langole san dea jachhen? Golay dhan tulben kobe?” Rupeshdao serokom, boleki, “ki korbo bolo, age protibesira ki kore dekhi,” amader eto hasi thattar vetoreo,mita ar ashok dujone dujoner dike chokhe chokhe atke geachilo, anuradha ashok ke bollo, “vaisona, chas korbe jani, dekho, jomi kenar age golay dhan tulona jeno,” amra sobai ho ho kore hese uthlam, ora dujonei lajja pea geachilo.

Planning holo, kal amra sokale netar hater dike roana debo, rupeshdar maruti, ar rupeshdar ek senior colleague mr. Sen jaben bolechen amader sathe onar ekta ambasador ache seta nea asben, tahole mot 8 jone duto gari kore arame jaoa jabe, ranchi theke pray 160/170 kilometre rasta.

Pray rat 12 ta nagad amra ghumolam, amra char jon anur khate, ora tinjon drawing roome, arekta ghore anur sasur sasuri thaken.

15 / 10 / 1993
Friday

sokale 7 tar somay mr. Sen anuder barite ese hajir, amrao ghum theke uthechi pray 7 tar somay, fresh hoye dress kore breakfast sere jokhon berolam 8 ta beje geache, anu, rupesh da, mita ar ashok anuder maruti te, mr.sen, sanjib da, ratna ar ami mr.sener garite, drive korchilen mr.sen, samne sanjib da pechone ami ar ratna, ratna ke khub sundar lagchilo, golapi ronger salwar kamij porechilo, sleevless, oke dekhteo khub sundar kina.

Half ghagra type straight cut skirt porechilam ami, blue ar black er printed, jorjet kintu khub soft, sada shirt, back ar front ‘u’ cut, samne botam, sobtai sythetic, lose hata, hat tulle bogol dekha jay, vetore deep blue panty ar matching bra, tape jama porini, sanjib dar comments “dress to kill.” Anu ar mita saree pore chilo, ashok naki saree besi pochondo kore,

Mr.sener puro nam anupam sen, rupesh dar senior, boyosh bochor 40+ hobe, back brush kora chul, mathar maj khane besh ekta tak ache, married, ek maye, santiniketane pore, apatoto bou nei, baper bari geache, blue jeans ar yellow shirt, halfsleev, petano figure, vison handsome lagchilo, mayeder khub ekta patta dichhilo na, kintu chokher dristi ta khub soft, gof ache, thoter kone sob somay jeno ekta mridu hasi legei ache, sob meleya ek kothay akorsonyo.

Soroter sokal, charidik sona rode jhalmol korche, halka siter amej, ekhane thanda ta besi pore, ranchi te to 1 degreero niche neme jay, charidike sobujer somaroho, haturera hate jachhe, math sobje holude makha dhan gache vora, bairer dik theke chokh ferano jachhilo na, ek ghonta cholar por amra daralam ekta road side hotele, cha khaoa hobe, egg toast ar cha, counter theke khabar ta sen anlo, prothome amkei serve korlo!

Ratna amar dike ektu chokhe haslo, mita ar ashok alada table neachilo, dujone ora nijeder chara ar kichui chinche na. Jai hok, abar amra jatra suru korlam.

---“mr. Sen ke ki bujjhis ?” Ratna amar kane kane bollo.

---“tui bol,” ami bollam.

---“egyea ja, hoye jabe.”

Hoye je jabe ta ami jani, kintu vabchi sanjib da, rupesh da ki vabbe! Ratna, anu ba mita ke neya amar chinta ney, ora ki jinish amar theke ar ke beshi jane!

thik 11.30 amra poucholam lohardaga bole ekta jaygay, besh boro sohor, mr.sen bollen eta naki biharer khub boro khonir sohor, industrial city, ekta hoteler samne gari darkoralo, launch kora hobe ekhane, mr.sen ektu gomvir type, kintu amar proti jeno ektu besi careing, bishoy ta rupesh da nojor koreche, khaoar por sobai cold drinks khachhi, rupes da bollo, “ladies and gentle men, amra sobai jachhi anondo korte, je jar nijer moton kore enjoy korben, ekhon amra sobai sobar friend, keu keu karur karur special obbosyo, cheers, enjoy” mr. Sen alto kore hat tali dilen.

Ebar ami samne uthlam, ratna ar sanjib da pechone, jamar oporer ekta botam khule deachilam, ek pa jhulea ekpa seater opor tule half babu hoye boslam, jate eksathe tin jon kei dekha jay ar kotha bolte pari, dan hat ta backrester opor rakh lam, jate mr.sen amar bogol ta dekhte pay, kichukhhan bade soja hoye boslam, cross legged hoye, ba deker bra er strap ta dekha jachhilo. Asole ami bujte pere chilam je mr.sen amake impress korar chesta chalachhen, hiseb onujaye amra dujonei pore achi, kintu chaichilam jeno mr.sen age proceed koren.

Thik bela 3 ter somay amra netar hat poucholam, pahari rastay jungler vetor dea jig jag vabe 15 kilometer rasta, apurbo sinic beauty, sunglass khule buker jamay jhulea delam, govir jungle, soru rasta, protita baker mukhe horn bajate hochhe, majhe majhe pahari jharna, monehochhe jeno diner alo kome asche, asole ghono gacher vetor theke alo aschilo na, nistobdho charidik, majhe majhe ekta duto truck jaoa asa korchilo, mr.sen bollen ogulo naki ki ekta karkhana ache hindalco na ki jeno nam, tader mininger truck. Obosese osadharon sundor pahari rasta dea netar hat poucholam, gari gea thamlo lal talir chad ola ekta bunglowr samne, “revinue bunglow” banglay bole dakbanglow, etar boyos naki pray 100 bochor, amra nabte na nabtei caretaker chute elo, mr.sen book korechilen eta,

---“miss susmita dekhun kon ghor ta pochondo,” mr.sen bollen.

Ei prothom ami vishon lojja peplam, jai hok, charte double beder room ,attached toilet, besh boro boro ghor, ajkal eto boro ghor dekha jay na, protita ghore ekta kore fire place, pase ekbojha kore kath rakha ache, rate agun jalabar dorkar porle jalano jabe, sob kota ghor eki rokom, samne birat chowra lal mejher baranda, prothom ghor ta nelam ami, mane officialy ami ar mita. Mr.sen amar bag ta ghore dea gelen, ar bollen, “taratari fresh hoye nin, amra ekhoni sun-set dekhte jabo, ar ha, pahari rastay hi-heel porle sabdhane hatte hobe kintu, noile pa mochkanor somvabona ache,”

---“apni achen to, pa mochkale kole tule neben,” mita bole uthlo.

Taratari bathroom sere amra ektu chokhe mukhe jol dea chul tul gulo thik thak kore sobai hoi hoi kore berea porlam sun-set pointer uddessye, ekta fluske cha vore neoa holo, pray 40 minute hatar por poucholam, ekta math, tar por theke paharer dhal suru, pechon dike bes dure koyek ta ghor dekha jachhe, ar sob jungle, west side ta faka, tokhono surjo ostachol gami hoyni, amra kichukhhon edik odik ghurlam, sundar ghase dhaka math dekhe sanjib da to sueai porlo, sobai mile bose plastker cupe kore cha khelam, chelera sobai cigerette dhoralo, amra edik odik ghurte lagalam,

Sobai jejar partnerke sathe kore edik odik chole gelo, mita gelo ashokdar sathe, ratna ar anuradha oder boreder hat dhore alada hoyea gelo, ami ar ki korbo, egyea gelam, khanik ta jabar por sundar ekta jaygate daralam, samne pahar ta dhalu hoye nebe geache, tar pore jungle, ami ekta boro pathorer opor boslam, samne paharer dhal, nicher dike kisob nam na jana fhul fute ache, fhul gulo tul bar jonno ami ektu nicher dike nabar chesta korchi, emon somay, sunlam,

---“jutoata khule namun miss roy,”

Mr.sen, kokhon chole esechen bujhte parini, ami takalam,

---“are , kokhon elen ? Ora kothay?”

---“ora to joray joray edik odik chole gelo, eka boka hochhilam, apna ke edike aste dekhe amio aslsm,”

---“ valo holo, amio vabchilam,”

Pathor tar opor mr.sen ese boslen, ami choto choto paye hatachola korte laglam,

---“achha mr.sen, boudi ar maye ke anlen na keno sathe kore? Tahole khub moja hoto,”

---“apnar boudi baper bari geache, maye ke niyea, oder bari kali pujo hoy to,”

---“apni jaben na ?”

---“kali pujor somay jabo, amar company to amay eto diner chuti debe na! Ami jabo kali pujor du din age, tar por riya ke hostele dea amra firbo.”

---“apnar maye hostele thake ?”

---“ha, shantiniketon,”

---“kon class?”

---“ class twelve.”

---“eto boro apnar maye ?”

---“ta ar hobe na ? Amar boyosh tao to kom holo na!”

---“satty bolchi, apna ke dekhe 38 er besi mone hoy na,”

---“49 running”

Mone mone vablam, amar vul hoyeche, prothom theke, vabchilam amake impress korar chesta korche, bodh hoy amake mayer moton sneho korchen, ……………….thik ache, dekhajak tobuo, arektu bojhar chesta kori, dareai chilam, ebar daralam, ek paye vor deya komor ta bekyea, onek ta sorosswati thakur jemon vabe daray, sei vabe, lokhho korchilam sener nojor ta ke, amar komor theke payer vetor gurchilo or chokh, tobuo dristi ta pora amar moton mayer pokhheo ektu kosto kor chilo, na, eke direct seduce korar chesta kore dekhi to ki hoy,

---“oi ful gulo ki sundor,” ei bole ami paharer dhale nabar chesta korlam,

---“are are , daran, ami ene dichhi, kothay pore tore jaben,”

Paharer dhale sen ektu nicher dike nablen, ami thik oporer dike ubu hoye boslsm, skirt ta hatur opor, samner dik ta khola, nich theke uni poriskar dekhte pachhilen amar panty,

---“oi je oi ful ta, na na oi je golapi ar sada oi ful ta,”

Chokh ta atke geachilo, amar panty te, bes koyek second, nije ke jeno control korlen, bujhlam, boyosh ar oviggota onar dhayrjo barea deache.

Uni opore uthe aslen, ami uthe daralam, pathor tar opor boslam ami, uni amar samne aslen, ami ghar ghurea matha ta helye delam, ful duto amar mathay guje dilen.

Hotat akas lale lal, surjo tokhon pate boseche, khone khone akaser rong bodol hote laglo, sob sese nil theke deep nil hoye andhokar nebe elo soroter halka kuasar vetor dea. Pakhider ghore ferar tara, koto kichu golpo korte korte phirchilo ora, koyekta pahari manush goru ar chagol nea paharer dhal theke uthe ese amader pas dea chole gelo ulto deke, ke jane kon pahari grame, pubdiker jungler mathay gol sonar thalar moton chand, ami hypnotised hoye geachilam, sombit firlo mr. Sener dake, “ebar fera jak, thanda porche,”

Satty ebar bes thanda lagche, halka kuasay charidik cheyea geache, ora sobai je jar pryo puruser sathe gaye ga lagea komor dhore sarerer gorome gorom hoye egeya choleche, ami pechone, amaro pechone mr.sen, rastar dhare ki jeno ekta nam na jana ful, bes sundor gondho, ami du hatur vetor skirt ta chepe dhore samne jhuke nichu hoye ful take dekhar chesta korlam, koyek second, hatat onuvob korlam, du pachar khaje nicher vetor dike ek ta kocha, kar jeno angul nicher vetor dik theke opor deke uthe elo khocha dea, achomka kocha kheyae ami chomke utthe soja hoyechilam, bujhlam mr.sen, abar nichu holam, ebar sporso pelam hater, amar nitol vorat pachay hat bulote laglo mr.sen, du bar hat bulea tipte laglo pachaduto, kichu bollam na, darea onar deke alto kore dekhlam, nurvus lagchilo amar, cholte laglam, ora onek dur ageya geache, mr.sen amar kache elen, amar komor ta jorea dhorlen, vison voy korcholo amar, dekhi onno dike kotha gorano jay ki na, bollam, “achha mr. Sen, ei je apni amader sathe berate elen, boudi aste chay ni ?”

---“o to baper bari geache, kali pujor por asbe, amio jabo maye ta ke hostele deya amra firbo.,”

---“kon classe pore apnar maye?”

---“class xii, she is 19 now,”

---“tobuo, ei je na niya ekla aslen, kichu bolbe na ?”

---“tomar boudi bole, amar naki ja boyesh, kono maye kache asbena, tai kichu bolbe na,”

Eto gulo kothar vetoreo hat ta kintu amar pachay bollachilo mr.sen, du pachar khaje angul deao goshchilo,

---“pl. Mr sen, erokom korben na,” matha nichu kore ami bollam, “ami apnar mayer boysi”

Ekta cigerette jalyea mr.sen amar komor ta abar joralen, kache tene nilen amay ekdom onar buker kache,

---“please mr.sen, ami apnar mayer boysi, erokom korben na,”

---“sei jonne to tomay eto ador korchi miss roy!”

Bujhte parlam, vishon khudharto mr.sen, saradiner klanti, gham, colon, ar cigerretter gondho mile mishe ekta uttejok purushali gondho pachhilam ami, matha nichu kore hatchilam ami, achomka mr.sen amar pechon theke skirt ta tule amar pantyr vetor hat dhukeya debar chesta korlen, ami ek jhatkay, onar hat sorea skirt ta thik korlam, chapa biroktir sathe bollam, “ki hochhe mr.sen ! Ei vabe rasta ghate ja ta korchen kintu apni,”

Emon somay, anur gola, “koire sonu, toder ki baghe kelo nakire!”

---“baghe kelo, naki chulo? Dekhis baghe chule atharo gha,” ratna bollo.

---“baghini ke ki ar baghe khabe? Dekhis golay dhan tulis na jeno.” Mita foron katlo sur kore.

Ki lajja, sanjibda rupeshda, ashok sobar samne…………….ki aschorjo sobai hasche!

Besh thanda lagchilo, tar opor voye uttejonay amar gola sukyea kath, matha nichu kore hat duto buker kache joro kore egyea gelam ami, keno janina, amar hatar vetor kemon jeno advut chondo chole elo, ami jani, amar pechone mr.sener chokh duto amar pachay atke ache, atanuda bolechilo amar ei hatar vongita jekono puruser sorere agun dhorea debe, amar ektu age mita ar ashokda dujone dujonke jorea dhore choleche, mita puropuri ashokdar sorere vor dea hatche, ashoke dar duhater vetor o jeno harea feleche nijeke, achha mr,sener boyosh koto? Maye class xii pore, 19 bochor , sener boyosh 49, ei boyoshe eto khidhe thake? Na ki sudhu chokher nesha? Parbe ki ? ……..dekha jak, ar koto dur egote pare !

Samne koyek ta alo, koyekta dokan, “rupesh, cholo cha khaoa jak,” mr.sen bollen, cha ,gorom jilapi ar choper order dilen, amay jiggesh korlen,

---“ki khaben?”

---“gola sukhyea geache, age jol khabo,” onar dike archokhe takyea matha nichu kore gola nbyea bollam.

Cha porbo sesh hole dakbanglowte firlam amra sobai, tokhon sondhya 7 ta.

fresh hoye ekta patla see-through maxi porlam, tar opore mota moton hatu jhuler kimono chapalam. Mita nighty porlo ar sal gaye delo. “ha re ki korajay bolto?” Mita bollo.”Kiser ki?” Ami bollam.

“ami jodi ashoker ghore jai? Sen tahole kothay jabe? Manage korechis sen ke?” Mita bollo.

--- “tor kutochhe tui ja na, sener bapar sen bujhbe” ami bollam.

Achomka toileter dorjata khule gelo, ar ek mukh hasi nea berholo ashokda, ghore matro ekta lonthon jolche, tar modhhaye theke jodi orokom vabe keu berhoy ki rokom voy ta dhore apnarai vabun, “apni ! Amader bathroome? Ki korchilen okhane?” Chomke uthe ami bollam,

---“na na apnader bathroome ami chilam na, amader ar apnader bathroomer moddhey ekta dorja ache, sekhan dea elam, mathor, jharudarder jonne rakha arki, british der bapar to .”

Ami alo ta nea dekhi ha satty tai, ba, eta besh valo holo, ghore fere dekhi, o maaaaa, ora dujon dujonke jorea dhore chumu khachhe, ashokda ghore chole gele ami ar mita plan korlam, mita bath roomer vetor dea ashok er kache jabe, sen ki korbe sen jane.

Sandhya 7.30 sobai barandate ese boslam, ekta lomba kather table pata ache, dudike kather chair, duto aramchairo royeche, amra kather chair gulote boslam, ashok ar rupeshda aramchaire boslo, caretaker tiffin delo, muri badam ar gorom cha, kichukhhan golper por mr.sen ekta botol nea aslen, pechone caretaker 8 ta glass nea ar jol nea table er opor rakhlo, rupeshda ar sanjibda hoi hoi kore uthlo, “senda apni ontorjami mosay, ei na hole enjoy?” Ratna kichu ekta bolte geachilo, mr.sen bollen “mrs. Ghosh, pl. Aj ar kal din ta apni mr. Ghosh ke chuti din, ami kotha dichhi, uni kolkatay fire apnar ades mene cholbe, pl. Bochore duto charte din embargo withdraw korun , it is my request.” Ki jeno chilo onar bolar vetor, ratna ar kichu bollo na, ami sudhu mr,sen ke lokhho korchilam, ei sei manush ! Je amar pachay kichukhhon age hat bollacholo ?

8 ta glase dhallen mr.sen, charte te thumpsup mesalen, baki te jol.

---“mayera thumpsup deoa khabe, ar amra jol. O.k.?”

---“yes miss susmita.” Abar amake prothom,

Pray 9.30 porjonto panahar chollo, amader mane mayeder dubarer besi dayni, ora tin glass kore khelo, songe gan holo, kobita golpo, darun jomati adda holo, oi thandar vetore amader ga gorom hoyea uthechilo. Hotat mita bole uthlo “tora ektuku chup kor / valobasibar tore, de more obosor,”

Sobai ho ho kore uthe mita ke ar ashokda ke pasa pasi bosyea delo. Mita or gayer chador ta ashokdar gayea chapa delo, dekha dekhi kina kejane, ratna ar anu o oder borerder pase boslo, ek chadorer tolay, ami ar mr. Sen lomba table er du prante mukho mukhi, vison ichha korchilo uthe geya mr. Sener pase bosar, kitu parlam na. Aste aste uthe barandha theke nablam, dhire dhire samner lonta peryea khader kinaray daralam, ekta gache helan dea, mr.sen uthe amar pase daralen, jungle pahar vese jachhe chander alote, charidik chup kore ache, sudhu jhi jhi pokar dak ar ki jeno ekta poka dakche tik tik tiktiktik, mr.sen mridu golay gan dhorlen, “chander hasir bandh vengeche………o rojoni gondha tumi gondho sudha dhalo ……”

Gache helan deya dariea chilam ami, soja hote geya ektu jeno tole gelam, samnei paharer dhal, mr.sen amay dhore fellen, amay pajakola kore tule nilen, ami o nischinte onar kole uthe mukher dike takalam, amay ene ekta chaire bosyea dilen uni, sobai hat tali dea uthlo, 10.30 se khabar elo, bonmurgir jhol ar ruti. Tar por minute dosek golpo gujob holo,mita ar amar pechone laglo sobai, anuta bole uthlo, “ki sen babu, eje bikle vorer phul futte dekhchi,”

“ta thik, tobe e ful bikelei fote, rojoni gondha,” mr. Sen bollen.

Anu uthe amaar hat dhore ektu alada kore bollo, “joto paris enjoy kor, osabdhan hosni, rupesh ke ami manage korechi,”

---“bolechis naki?”

---“ha, sanjibdakeo,”

Isss ki lojjar bapar! Amar jeno matite mise jete ichhe holo.

Aste aste sobai je jar ghore dhuke gelo, sob sese mita gelo, jabar somay bollo, “ami other ghore jachhi, sen ke manage koris.”

Ami ar mr.sen, baranday mukho mukhi, truck suit pore achen mr.sen, ar ekta patla jacket moton ke ekta,dutoi sada, vison handsome lagchilo, uni uthe ese amar pase boslen,

---“thanda lagche? Chador anbo?”

---“na, tahole aj rat ta ar mone thakbe na, dekhun charidik chander alote ki rokom diner moton lagche?”

---“ei ta upovog korbar jonne to asa, ora sute gelo, chand ar paharer ei milon ora dekhte pelona, susmita, sobai tomay sonu bole, ami jodi susmi bole daki ?”

---“dakben je name ichhe apnar”

Buker vetor kemon jeno gur gur korte laglo, moner vetor ekta halka attosomorponer akuli bikuli cholchilo,

Uthe gelam abar gach tar kache, mr.sen elen amar pechone daealen, ami vabchilam ebar hat debe ebar, kadhe hat rakhlo amar, ami firlam or dike, du hate amar komor ta jorea dholen navir kacha kachi sporso pelam sokto kichu ektar.chumu khelen amay, sei kiss ja kono mayeke vije jete sahajjo kore.

---“duto diner jonne amay eivabe pagol keno korchen mr.sen?”

---“ei dudiner smriti neaye ami amar baki jibon katate chai susmi,”

---“please mr.sen, apnar family ache, vabun tara ki mone korbe!”

---“ami boro eka susmi, aj sokale jokhon tomay dekhi, chomke uthechilam, onekdin ager kono ekjoner moto tumi, mone holo se jeno sei boyosh nea abar amar samne eseche, please susmi amay sikar koro, fireya deona,”

Ami montro mughdher moto mr.sener buke matha rekhe sunchilam, romantic purushali gola, ar vison purushali ghondho, ami vule jachhilam ami ke, amra ke !

---“tai to jokhon sondha belay tumi amay bolle tumi amar mayer boyshi, ami bolechilam tai to eto valobaschi tomake, thik tomar boyshi chilo se, babar jeder jonne amader byea holo na, onno ek purusher ghoroni hoye chole gelo, ar ami chakri nilam ekhane, sob somporko chire fellam babar sathe. …….”

Amar kane ar kichu dhukchilo na, jorea dhoram ami, ador korte laglo amay, ami or jacketer vetor hat golea delam, vison abese khamche dhorlam ami, sobol porinoto purusher du hater vetor chowra buke nispesito hote laglam ami, amar pachay hat bolate laglen uni, ami alto kore ghure daralam, mathata helyea dilam onar kadhe, amar chowra vorat pachate onar purushanger sporso pelam sobol duhate bogoler tola dea amar buk tipte laglen, dhire dhire ekta hat nabieya anlen amar tolpete, ovvayas bosoto hat ta dhore fellam ami, uni kono jor korlen na, samne firlam ami, duhate gola jorea dhorlam, chumu khete laglen amay, amar thote, thotta chuste laglen, amar chokh bondho, aste aste jivta amar mukher vetor dilen, ami o sara delam,

Ami or mathar dupaser chul dhore mukhtake tule dhorlam, takalam ami, jorkore onar matha ta neya amar du payer majhe chepe dhorlam ami, komor narea narea ghoste laglam onar mukhe, amar pacha dhore amay tene nilen nightyr vetor matha golea pantyr opor deaye nak ar mukh ghoste laglen ar pacha tipte laglen, matha chepe dhorlam ami amar strionge, jole vese jachhilo, pantyta vije sop sope hoye geachilo, uthe daralen, amar mukh ta dhore alto kore chumu khelen,

---“ami ar parchi na sen,”

Amay pajakola kore tule nilo, “ ei jongole ar noy, cholo ghore jai, mita to amader ghore ashoker sathe, “

Amar sombit firlo, sottyto eto rate jongoler vetor thakata …..jodi jontu janowar ase tahole bipod hobe, bollam, “nea cholo amay,”

Alto kore khate suiea dilo, ami or jama dhore tan marlam, amar buker opor porlo o , or mukh dhore ami thote chumu khete khete alto kore or nicher thotta kamre dhore jamata du hate khule dilam, buke ghono chul or, ebar o amar kimono ta khule delo, ek hate buk dolte laglo, khub dhire dire ar softly, amar chokh buje elo, o amar nighty ta komor theke tule, mathar opor dea khule dilo, ekhon ami panty ar bra pore suea achi ek vison porinoto puruser buker niche, ami or truck suit ta nabea dilam komorer niche, or sugothito pachay hat bolate laglam ami, hotat uthe porlo, fire place agun dhorabar jonno, dekhlam ek darun sexy chehara, chotto ekta jangia pore ache sudhu, ami balish kamre dhorlam, uthe gelam or kache, pechon theke jorea dhorlam ami, chumu khete laglam or ghare kane, agun dhoranor por amay jorea dhore nea elo abar bichanay, ek tan mere khule dilam ami or jangia ta, oawwwoooo or purusango, ektao chul nei, clean shaved, o amar bra ta khule delo, amar vorat 34c sizer buk , khelte laglo o, bachha cheler moton, dolte laglo duhate, amar nipple chuste laglo, amake ghurea or buker opor nea aslo, ami or mukhe buk duto chepe dhorlam, o amar panty khule dilo, amar pachay hat bolate laglo, du pachar khaje angul dea ghoschilo o, se ki vison sukher onuvuti, abar amay chit korlo, ami pa fak kore dilam, o amar du payer fake angul golea delo, offfffff sei rater kotha ekhono amay vijea day, aste aste amar naki te angul bolate laglo, amar sara sorir osojjo sukhe churmar hote chaicilo, angul golea dilo, angulta ke ektu oporer dike kore amar tolpeter vetor ghoste laglo, ar ekta angul dea amar naki take narte laglo, ami hitahit gayan sunya hoea gelam, osojjo sukhe sitkar kore uthe chilam, or payer fake soja hoye thaka jinis ta ami chai chilam amar vetor,

---“offfff sen ami ar parchi na, oooowwwwwwwwwwoooo,”

Vison jore chechiea uthechilam ami, khater opor du pa charea boslo, koler kache or khara hoye oyha purusango, ami komorer du pase pa dea or koler opor boslam,

---“condom ta lagao tara tari,” bollam ami,

Amar hate delo packet ta, ami mukh dea chire or sosar moton purusanger matha theke chamrata nabea condom ta porea delam, or gola jarea komor tule thik thak vabe bosar chesta korchi, o ek hate amar pacha dhore ar ek hate or jinish take amar du payer fake lagate ami dhire dhire boslam, ami or gola jorea oth bos korte laglam, o amar du pacha du hate dhore amar kosto komanor jonno help korchilo, amar pacha tene fak kore angul dichhilo,

Ami hafea geachilam, o amake bollo, “ hamaguri dao,”

Ami kunuite vor dea hamaguri dilam, amar pechone hatu gere bose du hater buro angul dea amar joni fak kore dhukea dilo, pechon theke thap marte laglo, ami tibro sukhe matha jhakachhilam, thap marte marte amar pachata fak kore dhore amar moldare aste aste angul dite laglo, ghoste laglo, notun onuvuti holo amar, ami tibro sukh ar samlate parlam na, nistobdo rat vore uthlo amar tibro sukher tikhno sitkare, jol khoshe gelo amar, ami ar oi vabe thakte parlam na, upur hoye suea porlam, bar kore nilo o ,

---“tomar hoyea geache, ebar ektu ghumao,”

---“na na tumi koro amay, berea jak tomar, tar por,”

---“tomar to hoyea geache1”

Ami pa duto opore kore fak kore dhorlam, “age dhokao, koro, kosto hobe tomar,”

Du payer fake bose dhukea dilo, thap marte laglo, ebar ektu jore, kichukhhan marar por or goti aro jor holo, amar buker opor suea porlo, amay chumu khete laglo pagoler moton, ar gorjon korte laglo, hum hum kore,

---“susmi amar susmi ese geache, ahhhaa” bole uthlo o.

Discharge korlo, ami or mathay hat bolate laglam, o amar buke matha dea suea chilo, kunuite vor dea uthe amay chumu khete laglo, ami gola jorea ador khelam. Ador khete khete kokhon jeno ghum ese geachilo bujhte parini,

Achomka ghum venge gelo, ekta thanda batase, fire placer agunta jolchilo, pase sen nei, dekhi dorjata khola, kothay gelo, taratari bayre berea dekhi darea ache barandate, ciggerette khachhilo, pechon theke jorea dhorlam ami, vison thanda baire, achomka nabujhe berea kapte laglam, buker vetor jorea dhorlo amay,

---“ei thandate erokom vabe jonmodiner posake berhole keno?”

---“tumi chole ele keno amay fele?”

---“tomay fele ami jete pari! Kokhono jabona,”

Amay jorea dhore ghore nea elo, komboler tolay dujone sulam, ador korte laglo amay, ami or lome dhaka buke hat bolate bolate bollam, “amake rakhbe tomar kache ?”

---“setai vabchilam susmi, divorce peya jetam, kintu amar maye tar jonno …..parlam na susmi,”

---“orokom bole sobai, ami jani, asole bouer jonno mon kharap korche tomar,” ei bole pas fere sulam ami,

Amar pachate ar pachar khaje hat bolate bolate amay abar feralo or dike, “susmi, amar bou tomar moto noy, or kache ami birjo pater sukh pai thiki, kintu tomar kache ja pelam seta jounotar sukh,”

---“ keno mitthay santona dichho?”

Ki jani keno, hotat amay pagoler moto ador korte suru korlo, amar hat tate nijei or purusango ta dhorea dilo, amio otake narte laglam, o amar du payer fake mukh guje delo, ami or jinishta ke amar dike tante laglam, o amar mathar dupase hatu gere …..i mean 69. Onekhhon evabe chollo, kono din er age ei vabe korini, bear pore obosso borer sathe praye ei vabe korechi, prothom koralo sen, ki rokom jeno ekta soda gondho, prithibir kono swad ba gondher sathe er kono mil nei, amar mukher vetor or jinish ta dhire dhire boro hoye uthlo, amar mukher vetore hor hore kichu ekta liquid vore jachhilo, amar du payer fak tao vije geachilo, o ebar uthe amar pa dutoke kadhe nilo, ar amar du payer fake or jinish ta dukyea dilo, tar por chalalo , ami oke chaichilam buker vetor, o amar buk tipte laglo, osojjo sukhe dujone sitkar korchilam, ei vabe kotokhon cholechilo jani na, amar tolpet theke kichu ekta jeno berea aste chailo, ami oke hat pa dea jorea dhorlam, jol khoslo amar, ar pray sathe sathe ami feel korlam gorom birjo chitke porlo amar vetore, oi obosthay aro kichukhon korlo, tar por na bar kore amay jorea dhore ador korte laglo, ami ador khete laglam, edike amar pacha ar du payer khaj dhore pacha beay gorea porchilo, isss ki rokom chat chat korche, or jamata deai ami muche fellam, ar or jinishtao muche delam,

---“condomer kotha ekdom vule geachilam” o bollo,

---“besh hoyeche, ami tomar bachhar maa hobo, eta ami kichutei nosto korbo na,”

---“sotty tumi rakhbe?”

---“ha sona rekhe dobo,”

Abar chumu khete laglo amay,

16 / 10 / 1993
Sat.day

Vor hoye aschilo, sunrise dekhbo, uthe porlam, bath room kore nighty ta porlam, kimono ta chapalam, tar opor kombol ta joralam, seno sei trucksuit ar amar sei muche fela or jamata porlo, ar ekta kombol joralo, mitake ami daklam, bathroomer vetor theke, o uthe chole elo, ar sen chole gelo, tar por dujone anu ar rotna ke daklam, surise dekhlam,

Cha khaoa holo sobai mile, mita ar amake dhorlo anu ar ratna, golpo sunbe kal ki holo, mita to thot kata, sob gor gor kore bolte laglo, rate 4 bar koreche ora,

Rotna bollo, “kirokom bujli? Bea korbi to naki chakha hoye geache fele dibi?”

Mita bollo, “nare ashoke cheleta valo, amay khub valo base, amra bea korbo,”

---“ar tor khobor ki?” Anu bollo,

---“ami kichu korini to!”

---“neku, kal sondhe theke kole chore gurchile, ‘ami kichu korini to’ bol siggir, ha re pare ekhono ?”

---“visser ichha mrityu janish to, sei rokom,”

---“boro ache? Naki kola jhule geache?” Ratna bollo,

---“du mutho, amar hater,”

Sobai hoi hoi kore uthlo,”bolis kire ? Nili? Osuvidha hoyni?” Mita bollo,

Khanik khon hasi thatta holo, amra thik korlam chan kore edik odik ghurte jabo, ora chan korte gelo, ami ar mita ei ghore, dekhi sen ek balti gorom jol nea amader dilo, “je keu age chan kore nao, ar ek balti ene debo”

Jai hok chan kore dress korlam, sada, hatur theke niche lal ar kalor kaj kora, anchol tateo oi eki kaj, sada blouse, front ar back deep cut, short sleev, lal brassire, panty to achei, mita churidar porechilo, ashoke naki churidar khub pochondo kore, ratna churidar ar anu saree, amra sobai ghurte berolam,

Boro boro chir gacher vetor dea kothay je paye hata rastata chole geache kejane, ami rastay nagea pahare dhal dhore nicher dike nebe gelam, heel juto, dhale juto ta khule hate nilam, “ota amar hate dao, hat free na hole tumi hochot khabe,” sener gola, ami jantam o asbei amar sathe, “ora sob kothay gelo?” Ek hate amar jutota nilo, ar ek hate amar hat dhorlo, amra ar ektu nicherdike jungoler vetor gelam, ekta jaygay kichu boro boro pathor pore ache dekh lam, ekta pathore helan dea daralam, sen amar pase,

---“ea maa jutota hate kore dhore acho! Chi chi ki lojja, dao dao”

O amar samne hatu gere boslo, amar ekta pa dhore or thai te rakhlo,

---“ay ay ki korcho,” ami badha dite gelam,

---“sundorir sundor paye juto porachhi,”

Paye hat bulea jutota porea dilo amay, bapar ta enjoy korlam, kalker blue jeans ta porechilo, ar green t-shirt, ei boyose eto romantic purush hoy! Ke jane,

Onno paye juto poranor somoy amar sareer vetor hat golea dilo, thaier pechon diktate, badha delam na, khil khil kore hese uthlam, pathortate du hat rekhe amar opor jhuke porlo, ami ektu thele dilam, du pa egyea daralam, pechon yheke jorea dhorlo amay, kaner kache fis fis kore bollo, “jungle tomay ekbar korbo,” ami bollam “na na baba keu dekhe felbe, jongli manushra, tar por sobai amake chaibe,….”

---“ektu please….”

Ami or uttejonar sporso pachhilam, besikhhan thakle ki je korbe, ami ferar poth dhorlam, amar pechone aste laglo, ami bujte parchilam aro uttejito hoye porchilo, amar hata, pachar duluni, dekhe, aste aste besh koeak bar pacha tipeche, fire ghore dhokar age caretakerer bouer sathe dekha,

---“aj aplog rohogi na?”

---‘ha, keyu?”

---“bibiji, ek bat bolu kharap mot sochiea,”

---“bolo keya bat!”

---“rat me jungoleme jada time nehi rohogi to achha,”

---“avi to din hai,”

---“nehi kal ratme ap or ap ki swami ohi per ke niche …..maine sobkuch dekhi, islyea bloi, kharap mot somjhi, ap babujiko somjhaengi to,…….jongli janwar nikalti hai rat me islyea boli.”

Is ki lojja, mone hochhe bathroom korte uthe dekheche, achha, or bor chilo, dekheche naki! Emonto hote pare or bor dekheche, oke boleche o amake bollo, isss …

Ghore ese senke bollam, ho ho kore hese amay japte dhorlo, “ei charo charo, ora dekhe felbe,”

---“ora keu nei, ar ki ar dekhbe, sobai sob jane,”

Vishon chumu khete laglo, ek hate amar komor jorea onno hate amar buk tipte laglo, ami bujhte parchilam, or kamonar agun dau dau kore jolche, jeanser pant jeno fete jabe, ami pechon firlam, amar du pachar fake o ghoste laglo, ar du hate amar duto buk tipte laglo, amar vetoreo tokhon or kamonar aguner choa legegeache, sobe matro ami golea jorea chumu khete jabo, baire oder gola sona gelo, chitke alada hoye gelam amra, sen baire gelo, ami toilete dhuklam,

Dupure khaoar pore amra abar sunset pointe gelam, khub anondo korlam amra, ratna nachlo, nach sikhto o, amra sobai gan korlam, sondha hobar poreo onekkhan bose roilam amra, aj sobai sal, soeatar nea esechilam, ektu ondhokar hobar por ami sei dhalu diktate gelam, ora sob edik odik kothay ektu ektu kore alada hoye gelo, ami sokaler saree ta porei esechilam, sareer niche panty porini sudhu, jani kichu ekta sener chai, nahole or santi hobe na, ektu dhale nablam, sen amar hat dhorechilo, jate pore na jai, sen boslo dhale, ami darea, durer pahar ta ki vishon mayabi lagchilo, pachay hat bulote laglo sen, ami ektu or dike sore gelam, prothome kaporer opor theke hat bulochhilo, ebar kaporer vetor hat dhukyea dilo, amar panty hin pachay hat bulote laglo,

---“ami sopneo konodin vabini erokom mayabi sondhay tomar moton kono ek osadharon sundorir sorir pabo ami, tao abar erokom mukto prakritik pahari poribese.”

Kichu bollam na ami, compliment ta enjoy korlam, ar upovog korchilam oi opurbo prakritik soundorjo ar tar vetor purush sporsho, amar komor dhore kache tene nilo, duhate pachatipte tipte amar thik tolpeter niche du payer khaje mukhta ghoshlo, ar thutni ta rekhe amar mukhr dike takalo, ami or mathay hat bolate laglam, chepe dhorlam or mukh, or hat tokhon sareer vetor dea amar 22 bochorer pachay, pachar khaje angul dea ghoste laglo, buro angulta ghoste laglo amar joni te, ami vabchilam sotty ki aschorjo nari purusher relation, ei lok tar ekta maye ache, jar boyosh pray amar soman, ar amar ekta baba ache je eri boysi , othocho amara dujonei ja korchi, ……..eta ki savabik? “ki vabcho sona,” “kichu na,” koler opor bose porlam, amay paharer dhale bosea dilo, ba suiea dilo bola jay, hatu vaj kore mathar niche hat dea suea roilam ami, or poroborti karjokolaper jonno, kapor komor porjonto tola, samne darea pant ta nabea dilo, jangia tao nabalo, chander alote chok chok kore uthlo or bisal purusango, hatu gere bose amar pa duto aro fak kore sojore dhukea dilo, aaahhhhhaaaaaa thapate laglo o, kotokhhon jani na, hotat jore jore ar druto thapate laglo, tar por amar vetor dhele dilo gorom birjo, valo laglo, sei valo laga jar bornona kora jabe na, kintu amar jol khoslo na ebar, ta hok, kal rate 5 bar jol khoseche, aj rateo nischai jol khosabe, ekhon jungole ki na ki hoye jabe, amar jonir khaj dhore jhonar moton gorachhilo or birjo, saya dea muche nilam ami, dekhi komore hat dea matha nichu kore udom hoye darea ache sen, ami ador kore or tolpete chumu khelam, ar amar saya dea or lingo ta ke valo kore muche dilam,

---“sorry susmi, tomay aram dite parlam na,”

---“ke boleche?”

---“ami jani, tomar dicharge hoy ni,”

---“chai jano, mayeder valolagar kichhu jano na, cholo ebar onek rat holo mone hochhe,”

Kichukhhan amra jorea dhore roilam dujone dujonke chumu khelam, tar por opore uthe dekhi keu kothao nei, ---“kothay geli sooob, miiita, anuuu, rotnaaa” daklam ami,

Edik odik theke sob elo, cheleder karur shirt in kora nei ar, mayera kapor thik korte korte elo, amra bunglowr dike egolam, jete jete amader alochonar bisoy chilo, manusher mone prokritir provab, anu ajker din tar nam dilo an evening in netarhat, sen bollo, “banglay nam koron korun, srimoti halder, ekhane amra sobai bangali,”
Mitar foron, “kire sonu bol kichu, mr.sen ki jigges korchen uttar de, lojja korche? Achha pore bole dis, banglay.” Ami or pithe alto kore dhakka marlam, rupesh da bollo, “achha ajker sondha ta ke jodi ami moonlight romance in netarhat boli tahole khub vulgur sonabe ki?” Ratna bollo “etao valo, besh valo” ami aste kore bollam, “chandni rate netarhate” sobai hat tali dea uthlo, osadharon, bollo sobai, sen to parle amay okhaei sobar samne chumuketo, ami ektu sore geachilam kina, tai pareni, kintu amar sorirer gorom ta katchena, ek ta jeno ghor lege ache, ekta sir sirani, du thaier vetor theke joni ke chuea tol peter dike uthche ar backboner thik nicher dike kemon jeno onuvuti, jai hok aj rate baire ……. Jontu asuk bagh asuk,

Kalker moton ajkeo amra thumsup dea du bar khelam, ar ora bakita, ami porechilam hatujul seethrough nighty, pink colour, ar black panty, back bra, gayea ek ta sal neachilam, orao khub hot poshak porechilo, ratna to ekta pray skin colourer tihgt half pant pore chilo, amra tighty boli, ar ek ta shirt, anu bollo, “ ki re aj tora ki vabchis?” Halka ghor laga jorano sore ratna bollo “aj bonfire hobe, amra char jone bone agun lagabo,” rater khaoa hoyegeachilo, sanjibda ar sen gacher tolay cigerette khachhilo, rupeshda tabler opor pa tule ki vabchilo ke jane, mita ar ashokda jure geache, anu achomka oder kache gea bollo, “ei ki korchis tora!” Ratna amake jorea dhore bollo, “kor kor amra dekhi ektu” amra ho ho kore hese uthlam, ora lojja paye chara chari hoea boslo, anu gea rupeshdar kole boseporlo, sedin jeno amader char joner vetor eksathe agun lege geachilo, ratna gea sanjibdar ga geshe daralo, sen or obostha bujhe barandate ese amar pase boslo, nistobdo rat, charidike sudhu jhi jhi pokar dak tar vetor mita ar anur chumur sobdo, ami sener du payer fake hat dea khamche dhorlam, sen amay dhorte jabe ami uthe porlam, sedin bodhhoy sobar ektu besi nesa hoye geachilo, ami chador ta khulerekhe daralam, amar sorere agun, kono kichu na vebe ghurte laglam edik odik, chander alote rat diner moton ujjol hoye geache, ami bujhte parchilam, sob kota purusher chokh amar dike, ar dekh be na keno, synthetic pink seethrough nighty, black panty ar bra ta bojha jachhilo poriskar, ami jani, ar amar vari pachar dola, sen aslo amar kache, “tomake bono debir moto lagche,” uttar dilam na ami, du hat charyea ek pak ghure nilam ami, ebar thanda lagte lag lo, kintu vetorer gorom komchilo na, gach tate helan dea daralam, anuara uthe ghore gelo, sen amar ghonistha holo, du hate amar buk duto dhorlo, ami or mukher dike takyea roilam, chumu khelo, gachtar gorata ‘y’ typer, oi faktate helan deachilam, ekta pa nichu ekta dale tule dilam,amake jorea dhorlo sen, or jinis tar sporso pelam, sokto hoyni tokhono, ami or jinis ta dhorlam, kochlate laglam, thik otar niche duto gol gol naru aj shave hoyni, puro jayga ta halka khocha khocha lom, or pant namyea dilam, jinish ta neya narte laglam ami, chamrata sorachhi ar dhakchi, [http://bangla-choti-online.blogspot.com/] amar buke or mukh, kamre dhorlo, ami aaaa kore uthlam, aste aste jinish ta sokto hoyea uthlo, o amar payer kache hatu gere bose amar du payer fake mukh ghoste laglo, pantyr opor deya, vije geachilo amar panty, alto kore kamor lagalo, ami seure uthlam, hothat amar sara sorere kapuni laglo, jani na thandate naki uttejonate, amake kole kore ghore neya elo, age theke fire place tate agun jalyea geachilo sen, ghorta gorom hoye ache, khub aste aste amar nighty ta khule dilo, kane sur suri dite dite bollo, “sundori, aj tomay ki korbo jano?” Uttar dilam na ami, sudhu or buker sathe nijer buk dutoke chepe dhorlam, ebar o nijer jama ar pant khule fello, fireplacer aguner alote dekhlam ek osadharon purush murti, kalkeo dekhechilam, aj jeno aro onno rokom mone holo, ami or gola jorea dhorlam, tolpete khocha khelam or purusanger, pechon theke brassirer hook khule dilo, vari nitol buk duto badhon mukto hoye ektu relaxed hoye porlo, “aj sara rat tomar modhur vare amar lathi dyea khochabo ami.” Ami or buke matha rakhlam, amar ghare chumu khelo, “tomar pachay mukh rekhe chusbo, kamrabo, tomar pechoner futote jiv dyea chatbo,” ami govir sas nyea or buker chul gulo khamche dhoralm, amar buk duto or purushali hater choa pabar jonne sokto hoye uthechilo, nipple duto sokto hoye uthechilo, or matha ta tene amar buker vetor nilam, ba diker buk ta or mukher vetor these dhorlam, chuste laglo, osojjo sihorone amar sorir kapte laglo, ami beke gelam pechon dike, amar panty ta puro vije geachilo, ekbar ba dik ekbar dan diker buk chuste laglo, dhire dhire o mukh namate laglo, amar navi te chumu khelo, panty ta khulte laglo ar mukh ta dhire dhire nabate laglo, ami ar chepe thakte parlam na, hita hit gyan harea sitkar dea uthlam, aaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhaaaaaaaaaa iiiiiiissssssssssssssssss, suea porlam ami, o amar pa duto vaj kore buker kache tule dyea mukh ta nabalo amar du payer fake, amar valobasar trivujer sirso bindu theke jiv dea chat te laglo, ami abar pagol hoyeagelam, jokhon amar nakite (clitoris) or jiver choa pelam, amar joni jole vije gelo, ebar o amar du pa ta or kadher opor rakhlo, ar amar vetore or purusango dukhiyrea dilo, offfffffffffffff sei onuvuti ekhono amay jole vijea dichhe, thapate laglo, “jore aro jore pl. Aro jore” ami bolte laglam, kichukhhan pore amay upur hote bollo, ami hatu gere khater dhare pacha ta uchu kore delam, abar thap dite laglo, ar tar sathe amar pechoner futote (moldare) angul dea ghoste laglo, ki osa dharon tripti,.tibro bege jol khoshe gelo, ebar o amay jorea bichanate probiol bege thapate laglo, or birjo poton holo, amar vetore se onuvuti ek matro mohila pathikara bujhben, amra sei rate pray aro 3 bar kore chilam, vorer dike o amar buke mukh rekhe ghumea porechilo, vor belate o abar amay korchilo, thik sei somoy mita daklo, “5 ta baje oth re,” aro 30 minute por amra uthe chilam,

17 / 10 / 1993
sunday
&
18 / 10 / 1993
Monday

Aj amra abar ranchi fire elam, porer din (som bar) amra hudru, jona, dosom falls, tagore hill, sob ghurlam,

Serokom kichu ullekh joggo ghotona ghote ni, netar hater ghotona nyea amra ar alochona korini.

19 / 10 / 1993
Tuesday

Aj amra culcutta back korchi, rat 9.40 train, dupure anur barite khabar por ami ar mita ashokdar sathe berolam, edik odik ghurlam, mita bollo, “cholo sen dar bari jai,” amar buker vetor ta kemon jeno kore uthlo, gelam, sundar bari, charte room, sen eka chilo, mita ar ashokda ektu alada hote chailo, sen oder ekta ghor khule dilo, ora dorja bondho kore dilo, ami sener dike takyea roilam, sen dhire dhire amar kache aslo, amay jorea nyea or nijer bed roome nyea gelo, ami ar soyte parlam na, nijei somosto kapor khule phellam, sener trausar ar panjabi khule dilam, oke bichanate suiyea ami or jinish tachuste lagechilam, tar por or bichanar chador amar jole vije geachilo,ami oke suiea dea or opore chore bose chilam, o niche, ami or purusango ta amar du payer faker vetor dhukyea nyea opor theke thapyea chilam, amar jol khoshe jabar por o amay niche fele vishon jore thapyea chilo, ar amar jonite birjo vore deachilo, vishon sukher vetor amra harea geachilam, mitara na dakle amader somay gayan chilo na, pray 6.30 nagad firlam amra anuder bari, sen ar anuder garite kore station elam, sen amay nyea ektu dure gelo, ekta chotto velveter box amar samne khullo amar ba hat ta nyea amar onamikate ekta ring porea dilo, sonar, majhkhane ekta ki jeno pathor bosano (pore jenechilam ota diamond). Train charbe, ami gate sen platforme, amar moner obostha bolar moton noy, purush pathok ra bujh ben kina jani na, mayder mon, ami tokhon vabchi neme jabo, ja thake kopale, ratna bodhhoy bujhte perechilo, train station chare jaoa porjonto o amar hat ta dhore roylo, thanks ratna tui bujte na parle boro bipod hoto amar.

Angtita ajo amar dan hater onamikate royeache.

Pathak / pathikara asakori golpo ta valo laglo, eto boro golpo apnara dhayrjo dhore porlen er jonno dhonnyobad, ei golper kon tuku amar jiboner ghotona, ar kontuku amar fantasy asakori bujte perechen, sudhu ghotona likhle char line sesh hoyejay, tai kolponar ronge rangyea dilam, comments asa kori.